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Tuesday, 19 August 2008

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    By David Crowder Band
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    The College Life

      So, here I am. The college life has begun! I don't start classes until tommorrow morning at 8:30, but I left my home ast Wednesday. I don't have a scale here at college, but at home I was about 149, so here is some straight up math. If each pound is essentially 3,500 fat calories, then I have to burn 500 calories a day to loose one pound a week. If I cut 500 calories from my current diet every day, and burn off 500, then I should technically loose 2 pounds a week. (give or take muscle mass/weird cafeteria foods that I miscalculate for calories.)

    Do you think that sounds kinda right? Let me know...I ran and played soccer Sunday, and yesterday I used a spin bike for 30 minutes.

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Wednesday, 23 July 2008

Monday, 21 July 2008

  • EDIT:: THINSPORATION AT BOTTOM

    Soo....I've been pretty sick for quite a while. It's made me loose 4 or 5 pounds I think. I've been sleeping and missing work, just really sore and nauseous. (and NO, I'm not pregnant. I hope.)

    Speaking of sex...haha. I'm so over my Summer mistake. Last weekend I was upset and for the first time did stuff with him when I wasn't drunk, and it caused me to realize just how stupid it all was. He's such a looser, and their are so many amazing guys out there. I just havn't meant the right one I guess. Besides, he's a sloppy drunk. He likes to bite/suck my lips inbetween kisses. It's hard to describe...but by anymeans, he ripped my tongue. It hurt like FUCK. So I'm going to wait and let it heal, and I havn't talked to him. He's lucky he ever touched my ass anyways. I know it sounds snotty, but I'm deffinitly not ugly and I can do so much better. I have someone who wants to move near to my college just to convince me to date him. While thats stalkerish, it does prove that I'm attractive to some.

    I'm ready for college. I really am.

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Monday, 07 July 2008

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    Alive
    By P.O.D.
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     Insomnia...that's how I roll lately. I can't believe that I went from 119 lb at 16 to 145.5 pounds at age 18. It makes me want to shoot myself in the face..like hardcore. I'm tired of having a fat stomach and a puffy face, and feeling disgusting when I'm making out. Like I don't want to be touched anymore. Since January alone, I've gained 10 lb. I'm on anti-depressants, and they have been making me crave sugar but even when I eat healthy I'm still gaining weight due to hormonal imbalanaces. I know, it sucks right? So here I am, normal until 17,( or at least so I thought,) and now I'm diagnosed as being bi-polar, with ADD and emotional issues. Great. Fucking fantastic.

      Soo...more thinspo. I weight 145.5 right now in my pajamas. Today, or rather yesterday, I had..

    9AM: 220cal Slim Fast and Lactaid

    12PM: 400cal muchies at church, cheese, grapes, chips, and small punch. estimate?

    2PM: 600 cal 1.5 PB sandwich, celery, dip, chips. estimate?

    5PM: 290 cal McDonalds Mocha

    Total: est. 1,510. =FATTYYYY. Plus about an hour ago I had 1/2 a cup of cooked noodles and some veggies from my parents dinner. I'm drinking water now...slightly hungry.

    I have a docters appointment at 9:45 tommorrow morning, and she said last time (6 lb ago) if they medicine kept making me gain weight even with exercise she wanted me to try Adderal. Anyone know if it helps ADD good, and won't make me fat? It's a rough blance trying to not set off either manic or depressive stages for me..I'm always depressed as part of my disease but certain things trigger it worse.

    I'm complicated.

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Thursday, 03 July 2008

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